Good Morning JBrianKellogg,
The difference between real Christianity and other religions is that our God came to us. He came to show us how to live and how to live with great purpose. “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) If we continue: “For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world but that the world through Him might be saved. He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
And this is the condemnation, that light has come into the world and men loved darkness rather than the light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.” (John 3:17-18)
Jesus came to show us that “willpower” is not enough. Only He is enough. It is a relationship with Him that changes your life forever.

Once we ask Jesus to come into our life and change us – we repent of our sins – meaning we turn from those old things we do to make us feel fulfilled. We allow Jesus to become Lord of our life. He becomes the director because we Know His plan is good for us. His Yoke is easy, His burden light. We no longer strive and struggle to have peace with God ,we Know we already have it.
On this page of prayer, we are warriors of Prayer. We read His Word for guidance and Wisdom. Inside of us lives God’s Holy Spirit Who gives us revelation of His Word. We no longer live for ourselves but for God. We sense His pleasure in walking with Him. He wants a relationship with You because He created You. All the feelings you feel have originated with Him. He is reaching out to you so that your sensitive spirit will find the right path. It is aching to find the way home.
There is no human who will fulfill this desire. Perhaps this girl you met was what we call a “lily of the Lord.” God is a jealous God and will not give His glory to another.
JBrianKellogg I lift you up to My Father who loves you, to Jesus who died for you and His victory is in the empty tomb and to the Holy Spirit who hovers over you waiting for you to ask Him into your life. I pray peace and direction over Your life but I know you will never find it without Him. Shalom.

My prayer for you is to the Holy Spirit.

Come Holy Spirit!, Fill the heart of your faithful servant,jbriankellogg, and inkindle in him the fire of your love. Send forth your Spirit and he shall be created and you shall renew the face of the Earth. O God, you who sent your only Son by the light of the Holy Spirit, grant that by the gifts of that same Spirit your servant,jbriankellogg, may be truly wise and ever rejoice in your consolation. Through Christ Jesus, Amen! In the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit…

A friend once told me that in my loneliness and in feeling lost, I should turn on solemn uplifting gospel music and just listen to the lyrics…and I must say it has been one of the best advice I have received. Dear jbriankellog, you can try this method and allow that calm voice speak to you through hymns or whatever gospel music that makes you connect more with the Good Lord. It could be Done Meon etc..

Stay Blessed and always remember, Christ in you the hope of Glory!!

I don’t really have much to add to the prayers and wisdom of the previous prayers, but “jbriankellogg” in response to your comment “In the end I don’t know if I truly believe in Christianity or any other religion for that matter” — true Christianity is not a religion [a system of man-made rules]. Christianity is about a personal relationship with the One True God Who Created you, and loves you unconditionally and eternally. If invited, [when you repent of all sin, and receive Jesus Christ as your Saviour and Lord] His Holy Spirit will come to live inside of you, and He will guide You through every situation in life. He will “recharge [your] batteries and [make you] feel real inside again”, better than anyone else, or anything else.
Lord God Almighty, open “jbriankellogg’s” spiritual eyes, spiritual ears, and his heart, so he may see You, clearly hear You, and understand what is Your good plan for his life.
Also for “kyote1r” [above] I pray that You would comfort him in his grief, and continue to surround him with Your peace. Help him to forgive his wife, for his own sake. If he chooses to, but that forgiveness won’t come, please forgive her through him, on his behalf, and fill him with the peace which that brings. Also help him to understand how shattering that loss of their daughter was to his wife too [grief can make us do “crazy” things to try to escape the pain]. Lord I pray for Your peace and restoration over this whole situation. In the precious Name of Jesus. Amen

Dearest jbriankellogg,
I was wondering if you are following the reading with Brian. (Hardin) It is so like God to answer our questions through His Word. We read 1 Corinthians 12 this morning where Paul talks about the Spirit of God and how He works in and through us. How we are many parts in a body and how all the parts are important. You are important JBrianKellogg.
You asked how we felt once we found God or accepted His love. Since it is a relationship, for each of us it is different. Some found God in a happy time without struggle, most found Him through struggle.
For me, it was a time of great struggle. We had two small children and my husband left. When I went to my sister for support to find a job and care for the children, her neighbor was mad at her and slashed my tires. The list of struggle escalated from there. The children and I had to move to another state, and I had to find a job. One of the children became very ill.
When I accepted Christ, I felt numb.
Each step was one of faith. God is faithful. At the job, I found sisters in the Lord, who quoted scripture to me and prayed fervently. I attended church with believers who loved me like family.
I could not get enough of His Word.
My husband became jealous of God. I had changed and had become a new creature. Within the year, he came back, accepted Christ and we have a strong marriage. That was almost 40 years ago.
I will not lie to you and say that the past 40 years have been all roses. Even in Christ, we have had struggles – highs and lows. But we have a 3rd person at the head of our marriage and He is the Lord. Our relationship with Him grows stronger because we know He has brought us through.
The Christian life is truly a relationship with One but shared in community. As we do here.
Father, I lift up JBrianKellogg to you again and ask You to send Your Holy Spirit to love him into the Kingdom. Help him see the life You have in store because the life You give is eternal and it begins the day he says YES to you. WE love You, Lord and JBrianKellogg.

Father in Heaven…restore the greatness You supplied in jbriankellogg and other confused and lost souls. Allow Your greatness to honor You and not man. Give a resource of untapped and divine love to Your greatness so it will never be lost again. Help all lost souls that have mixed emotions to find their path of love for You! In The Mighty and Precious Name of Jesus I send up this prayer…AMEN.

Amen, to Lauren’s prayer. “jbriankellogg”, as you let go of your own willpower, and decide to trust the Lord, I assure you, He will lead you. The most common way the Lord leads us is by a sense of either a “Yes” or a “No” in our spirit [NOT our mind] as we go to make choices in our life – it’s a bit like a “gut feeling”. He also leads us as we read His Word [the Bible]. After you have read any scripture, just ask the Lord what is He saying to you, personally, through that verse, or chapter. Listen with your heart, not so much your mind. If you are sincerely wanting to do life God’s way, He will know your heart and mind, and He WILL lead you, in whichever way He knows you will hear.